💥Trigger warning - I will be talking about Spiders, and there are images too!💥

It’s 5am, it’s dark, and oddly warm – no sun is up yet.

I have a fairly heavy bag over each shoulder and I’m carrying a box.
There’s no wiggle room - if I take a misstep I’ll be falling on my face, or my bum depending on which way the weight of the bags takes me.

I head past the amazingly green and lush planter boxes wondering what creatures may be awake at dawn??? [Mistake number 1]…

Down the super narrow stairway I go heading to the carpark.
It’s silent - there’s no one else up in the complex, and I’m super conscious of not waking anyone… tippy toe I go down into the basement.

And then 5 steps in, I catch a movement further down… probs about Step number 8.

My heart stops literally and I feel my breath catch in my throat… It's a spider.
[Clearly I’d manifested that by the silly thought only seconds earlier!!!!]

It’s not just any spider, it’s a huntsman.

Now you may be ok with spiders, but I have a deep seated trauma from a childhood memory.
Plus… I live in Australia – and there’s Funnel Webs and… well, lots of spiders… big ones!!!

If you’re one of those types that can look at them and think… “OMG how cute are they”, well chances are we may not be friends at this point – and probs definitely not if you like to hold them or let them crawl on you. 🤣

But I digress… just remember this is happening at lightning speed, I have not one second to spare before it sees me. And then it spots me.

I know it's just as frightened, well that’s what I’m telling myself… but what to do.
I cannot do an olympic size leap down another 2 stairs – or even speed up my pace.

So with momentum still forcing me down… the bags are swinging and my arms are near to breaking with the weight of the box… I gingerly take a step, and then another [Mistake number 2], and as I get to the same step as hairy 8 legs… it happened!!!!!

It jumped on my foot.😱

WTF – it had all the steps below and all the steps above to make a run for it!!!

Why on earth would you jump ON the human!!!!!??

I did let out a squeal, I was beyond worrying about all the sleeping unit occupants by now.
Sorry, not sorry. 🫣

I felt my leg shake like it was possessed!!!
It threw the spider off - I don’t even remember having that thought lol.
And then I moved down the remaining steps and burst into tears.😭

I was alive.
I’d made it.
I’m sure Hairy huntsman was somewhere having the same thought as well.

But what on earth is up with the universe -- why does it happen like that???

I mean, you have your hands full and cannot do ANYTHING... so a spider jumps on you.
You leave the house, the one time without dog bags... and not only does your fur baby poop, but he does it on the best looking lawn with 2 or more eye witnesses!!!🫣😭

It's like a lesson, and mostly either painful or embarrassing, is thrown at you to keep you on your toes!!!

Well... I'm not sure what lesson I was learning that morning... but I made it to the car, unloaded my cargo, sat in the driver's seat and waited till I was out of shock and could see clearly out of my eyes.

Wow, what a reaction.

You kind of have to wonder even at the ripe old age of (let’s just say over 50), how do spiders still gauge such a reaction?

I’ve literally spent the last 3 years talking myself into how much I love nature, and I can totally live with spiders – they’re my friends, they’re not out to get me…

I don’t have to kill them, I can just shoooosh them out of the way.

HAHA… clearly I'm delusional.

I get my ONE chance to prove to myself how grown up I am… and BAM – total fail.

Although, in my defence, I didn’t drop my bags and go after it like an SAS soldier, with a shoe in hand to squash that hairy 8 legs into nothingness.  So, that’s kind of grown up I think.  And it’s a small win.
Also the scream mustn’t have been as loud as I thought, cause no-one came rushing out to my defence!

Anyway – stay with me.

I had a 9hr drive home in front of me and I spent a lot of it thinking, well aside from when I was listening to an Alex Hormosi podcast with Steve from the Diary of a CEO (omg… so many gold nuggets from those 2).

I got to thinking.
There are quite a few of you that send me lovely testimonials with the words “fear of tech” in them.

Hmmm…
Is your fear of tech any worse than my fear of spiders?

I mean some of you have told me it’s to the point where you don’t even want to open Kajabi - cause it might delete your website, or send out a random email sequence, or have a checkout page fail in a launch… all by you touching something.

I hear that fear.
Obviously not for anything tech related for me… but hey, I just shared my spider horror movie.

What I love is that you tell me your fear has abated.💕

You’ve gone through my step by step Template tutorials, you’ve reached out to me in the Community and via email… you’ve had your questions answered (with love) and by a real human… and you’ve amazed yourself….

Because you did it.

You. Built. Your. Own. Website (or landing page)...
and Kajabi didn’t explode in the process.

Not only that, you are now feeling empowered enough to tackle the next Kajabi item on your to-do list — by yourself. You are no longer in fear.

You don’t need to hire an army in another country to do ALL the things, because…
you now have the confidence to keep moving forward!!!!

OMG how do I get that feeling around spiders haha - I wonder if there’s a course on that???🤣

Anyway, I just wanted to share this with you because whilst FEAR is real, it doesn’t mean we can’t beat it. Even for me with hairy 8 legs.

Kajabi might not be the easiest of platforms, but you CAN do it.
Step by step, piece by piece.
You can build your own online empire - and learn so much along the way.
Even if there’s a part of Kajabi that you think is just too much for you to handle, there’s always an expert (or several) that can do that bit for you.

You don’t have to do EVERYTHING by yourself, but it’s very empowering to have enough knowledge to know what to hand off.

I mean let’s be honest, there are some things that are best left to the experts.

For example:
I don’t want to be teaching myself how to operate a scissor lift that takes me to my double storey ceiling so I can install a new light fitting!!!  I’m definitely going to call someone in for that.

(Note: There’s a scissor lift that's moved in to my living room, which looks like a bomb went off in it, and is why I’m using that as an example – hubby is undertaking some reno’s….

That’s a story for another day!!!)

So here’s to you for tackling that fear of tech and diving in head first.

I’m cheering you on for every moment of your Kajabi journey!!! 🙌

(and hairy 8 legs, wherever he ended up)